Courage - inner battle

Sometimes it's easier to be faking that you are strong, rather than showing people that you're broken inside.

It is so much easier to hide away the tears rather than letting people telling us to "be strong"

Because once you've opened up, you'll have to explain and somehow make them understand. And that is just suffocating. Its just uncomplicated to roll yourself up and let time passes so that you'll heal for a moment.

But deep down we've been telling ourselves to be strong too much that it's tormenting us bit by bit.

It is definitely much more comforting to pretend that you are happy than to let people know you're at your vulnerable point.


But it doesn't give content to be pretending  "I'm doing fine"

Nonetheless, it is easier this way. Its undemanding.


 You sort of just let it pass through, yet at the end of the day you're gonna feel dejected once again.


And you simply repeat the process ; you can't contain your suffocating feelings any longer - but you pretend to be bright cause it makes everyone happy. Well, at least they wouldn't be shouldering more than they already have.

And they thought youre doing just great - because you claimed "I'm excellent. Nothing to be concerned. I'm having the grasp"


Now that's my biggest lie. Cause there isn't much I could do though, unless give some ease to them. At least the thought of they thinking I'm doing fine comforts me somehow.


Just how much longer do I need to deal with this each day. I'm just empty. At least, close to.

Cause this struggle, is only within myself. I stopped sharing my grapple to others, cause people do not really care.


But don't worry though, I'm gonna embrace myself cause all the sayings are beyond question. They are completely doubtless. Courage is not having strength to go on, it's about going on when you don't have the strength. 


I'm coming out as a brand new person. I'm going to own a steel heart afterwards, inshaaAllah.

Guess, what. Indeed. I AM BULLETPROOF!